Felix here, it's been a rough start with this year, and while somethings have gotten better, others have gotten worse, I've been battling things with my mental health, with my past, and overall trying to get things together in general to a much healthier and better place.
Over the past few months, Joshua has been working with me to try and get me back on track as I've been desperately holding onto a dream that "Soon" I would be able to come back and do what I love, and continue to be a part of this project. But the reality of it is, I'm not sure when I can come back and contribute, I don't know how long I will be down and out, or how long it will be before I'm capable of performing the way I used to.
Joshua needs someone to be by his side to help him as I did in my prime, so that this project continues to thrive on, to be honest I haven't been performing as I did in my prime for quite some time as my mental health and overall situation began to deteriorate.
I kept trying to hold onto things and push things forwards, as we have both been through a lot with this community I was assuring myself, oh it's just another phase. It's writers block, or the marathon runners brick wall. But right now it's more than that and if I ever have hopes of returning, I have to correct whatever is going on with myself first.
I want to thank everyone in the community for the role that you play, for everything that you do, there's beautiful things that happen, and are birthed from this community. Beautiful friendships, challenges, groups, overall, the imagination that goes into this community and the creativity that helps it blossom and continue to help all of these things grow.
Even more of a thank you goes out to everyone who helps the project continue to push on, I was scared when this started to happen with me, wondering what would happen to the project, and everything people have devoted so much time to grow, and protect. But it's going to be okay, if anything I feel like I may have been holding it back for some time.
But Joshua, and his team are doing an incredible job to make sure everything keeps moving on, and it keeps growing and I know it will do something great. It's sad for me to think I might not be a part of it when that day comes. But, it is what it is.
I want to thank Joshua personally infront of everyone, he's always been a great friend, a role model, an aspiring leader and someone who I've looked up to since I came into the project, and I want to thank him for the opportunity he gave me to even be as much of a part of it as I have been, and I hope to see it continue to keep going.
There's a lot that Joshua has inspired in this community that is good, whether people believe it or not, there is, and there's a lot of it that he's done that through inspiring me as well. I learned what he wanted out of this project since I came here, and sought to ensure that I created and pushed for what he desired the project to become. It's come a long way and it will continue to go further.
Thank you everyone.
See you Space Cowboys.. I'll catch you on the flipside